And perhaps the hardest part isn’t letting go, but learning to live everyday without you part of it.
If I wrote you a letter
With blood as my ink
Would you ask if I’m all right?
Would it make your heart sink?
If I sang you a song
With lyrics of cries,
Would it phase you I’m breaking?
Would you look me in the eye?
If I told you a story
Of a girl about to die
Would you realize that it’s me?
That I’m giving in tonight.
If one night I said
That you’d never see me again,
Would you think I was bitter?
Or see a broken heart within?
So when you see me in my casket
And read the note I left behind,
Will you remember all of our good times?
Will you wish you could rewind?
Will you cherish all the things that I loved?
Will you carry me in your heart?
Will you smile when you hear my name?
Or will the though tear you apart?
Despite all the scars engraved in my heart,
I still find myself running back to you.
The pain is still there, lingering on
I’m lost, I don’t know what to do.
Though trust is broken and my heart is aching
I keep telling you “it’s okay.”
But really, I’ll admit, I’m not alright.
I’m slowly slipping away
Right now, I am feeling a bit torn. Being deeply in love is hard- even harder when you both want to be together, but can’t. We are “dating”, but what’s the point? Don’t we both know where this ends? I love you so much, yet I am practically forced to let you go sooner or later. I’m torn. Family or true love?
And suddenly, she became distant. Unrecongnizable. Something switched off inside of her. Nobody knew what happened to her or what changed her. But, undoubtedly, something big had taken place and burned her out. Now, she’s far from what she once was. She doesn’t even know who she is anymore. The things she said she’d never give a second thought to, she is considering. And the things she said she’d never do, she is doing them.
Suddenly the things that she has lived with her whole life, are becoming the root of her anger. It consumes her life. She pushes people away because she doesn’t want anybody to truly see the monster she’s become. She’s looking at the world from the outside and the scary part is…that girl is me.
Friendships aren’t perfect
Friends do fight
Even if they try not to
With all their might
Some may never be
What they used to be
But I guess that’s life
Because that’s you and me
We used to laugh and play
Because we thought we were friends forever
But now one person stole that friendship
So now we’re never together
I try to hang around you
But I just get blown away
It happens every day
It even happened today.
She wanted so much more
She wanted the sky, but only got the sun
Still, she wasn’t happy